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So I’m going to start sharing songs that mean a lot to me on Wednesdays! Today’s is Thy Will by, Hillary Scott. I hear it on our Christian radio all the time and absolutely l o v e it! It really means a lot to me. I have sang it with tears in my eyes when I want to yell out to God and ask Him why He is doing this. I have sang it with joy in my heart because I want to follow God’s will. I have sang it when I didn’t want to follow Him. I have sang it when I am done fighting and surrender to Him. It has been my go to song in tough places…

 

Thy Will – Hillary Scott

I’m so confused
I know I heard you loud and clear
So, I followed through
Somehow I ended up here
I don’t wanna think
I may never understand
That my broken heart is a part of your plan
When I try to pray
All I’ve got is hurt and these four words

Thy will be done
Thy will be done
Thy will be done
I know you’re good
But this don’t feel good right now
And I know you think
Of things I could never think about
It’s hard to count it all joy
Distracted by the noise
Just trying to make sense
Of all your promises
Sometimes I gotta stop
Remember that you’re God
And I am not
So

Thy will be done
Thy will be done
Thy will be done
Like a child on my knees all that comes to me is
Thy will be done
Thy will be done
Thy will

I know you see me
I know you hear me, Lord
Your plans are for me
Goodness you have in store
I know you hear me
I know you see me, Lord
Your plans are for me
Good news you have in store

So, thy will be done
Thy will be done
Thy will be done
Like a child on my knees all that comes to me is
Thy will be done
Thy will be done
Thy will be done
I know you see me
I know you hear me, Lord

* I was writing and this exact song came on!!!

This year has been a tough one. Full of joy and hard times. But the hard spots have drawn me closer to God than I ever have been before. He is so real to me. His Word is alive and it speaks to me. It calms my fears, comforts my hurting heart. Strengthens my faith. Puts joy in my heart so I can sing and dance when everything else feels hopelessly messed up. Gives me a reason to smile when inside I’m hurting and feel like quitting. But then God breathes new life and determination into my heart. Because He never gave up on me I can’t give up on the people in my life who cause me pain. He alone is the reason I can get up and face the problems.

This year my little sister told us that she hates God and she will have nothing to do with Him. One of my best friends left my church. And she lives two and a half hours away so I hardly see her. We have had a lot of family issues go on… A lot. I have felt trapped by things that have gone on. Even though I was totally free… And I may have another friend that I won’t get to see much. These friends are all very, very close to my heart. But even though I have cried and called out to God and asked why He has taken them away I am thankful for these hard times. They have made me run to God. They have given me a longing for God’s Word like never before. They have grown my prayer life and made it stronger. They have also strengthened my relationships with my friends. I had taken my friend for granted, and when she was taken away I realized how she meant to me and how much my other friends meant to me. So I am thankful for this because it has made me appreciate my friends anbeid relationships like never before.

I have had many good things happen this year also… I found the courage to do what God wanted me to do, start a prayer group with my friends. This has drawn us closer together and to God. It is the most amazing thing ever. We used to never talk about Christianity and that. Now it is perfectly normal for us to talk about prayer, faith, the Bible and whenever. You can read the post from when this all happened here. There has been many other things happen that have blessed me. One of the big things happened in August. There was a family we had met a long time ago but hadn’t really gotten to know and we saw them again at a rodeo and we planned a night to get together for dinner. And since then we have gotten together every week sometimes three times a week! Sounds crazy but it is soooo awesome! Now I have new friends in this family that I’m really close to. So God took away my dear friend but He gave me new friends. They didn’t take her place but they are also very, very special to me. I thank God for them daily!

Another wonderful but hard thing is I have heard God’s call for my life. I’ve heard it loud and clear. But I have no clue how things will play out in my life. I believe He is calling me to the mission field, to the unreached people of Africa. You can read more about it here. There is times when I am in tears because the thought of leaving those who are close to my heart (my horse is included in this. lol) is so painful. But then I remember that God has a bigger better plan than I could ever imagine. And I find myself longing to go share the Gospel with people who have not heard of Jesus and His salvation. I feel Africa calling… I want the years to hurry by so I can go.

So through the hard times and the good… God can give us the strength to praise Him in the storm, trust Him through everything, be joyful and smile when we are hurting and surrender our lives and dreams to Him. So whether I marry or not, whether I loose all my friends or not, whether I have an easy life or a hard one, God has a plan that is better than I can imagine and He is still good!

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“And shall I pray Thee change Thy will, my Father,
Until it be according unto mine?
But, no, Lord, no, that never shall be, rather
I pray Thee blend my human will with Thine.

I pray Thee hush the hurrying, eager longing,
I pray Thee soothe the pangs of keen desire—
See in my quiet places, wishes thronging—
Forbid them, Lord, purge, though it be with fire.”
Amy Carmichael

 

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